4th of July

the past 2 fourth of julys have been times to remember the first one i finally made friends and hung out with them shooting off fireworks and enjoying life. the second was the most memory filled of all on the fourth last year i got released from rehab and i got to walk out on my own 2 feet. this fourth i was supposed to go to be with my girl friend but instead of hanging with her im sitting here at home by myself. her mom decides she doesnt want to come get me or let me come over. ever since me and her hav been together her mom has been one of the most selfish people i have ever met and this takes the cake. she disrespected me and insulted me today and im not gonna take it anymore if she wants too pick me up screw it im not going if she baddgers me about getting damn job then im gonna tell her off. and soon enough when jen turns 18 and moves out im gonna tell her to go fuck herself. i hate the fourth of july right now.

today and the day before

yesterday i went to see jennifer at terrys house it took about a hour to get there and when i did no one would answer the door. finally a guy about my age stuck his head over the fance to see who it was. it sank my heart and made me a lil uncomfortable. it just brought me back to the past about things that happened. its bugs me that she was sleepin over some one hows and some guys there. he left later but still :(. he wasnt her friend she didnt even know he was there but to be honest my heart stopped cha know? well we hug out for lil while did some huggin and kissin then my sister picked me up in my moms car. weve drove right past the street that me and jennifer ever kissed on. when home i talk to jen on the phone for a lil while then watch the deadliest catch. its an awesome show about crab fishing. everyone should watch it. i love that show.
today was boring as usual and hat pretty much thats all i have to say. +yawn.