11:56 p.m. 2/14/2010

A few days after jennifer left me i woke up perpared to take all of her belonging and pictures of her and little presents she had given me and burn them in the bonfire next to mac...and amyrose. i packed enough stuff for a week and got on the train leaving sylmar to lancaster and from lancaster to lake la. the train ride was and hour and a half. i was wearing so nice slacks, button up black shirt, and a brown swayed jacket i had bought for when jennifer got back from pregon. i payed 55 somthing dollars on that outfit and ewhen she saw me all she said was, you know i dont like those shoes. least to say i was upset. when i arrived mac was the first one to get out of amyrose's moms van. we called it the grrr mobile later for reason i wount disclose. mac was the first to get out of the van and amyrose just sat there. i gave mac a hug and ask her for one. we drove back to the house. over the next 4 days all three of us hung out. i hung out with amyrose more then mac dew to the fact that he slept. we didnt. and because mac was lazy me and mayrose found ourselves once again alone, climbing the giant rock piles (buttes) next to her house. cuts and bruises from the rocks we allways came out with smiles. by the bonfire we explored eachothers personalities asking any and all types of questions. we also asked eachother questions in the buttes

our questions started out normal then led to personal question, then would you ever questions, then finally the "just curious" question. i left on the 5th day and came back 3 days later. this time amyrose was the first to run up and hug me. and when i held her i felt ....idk it just felt. we continued our adventure into the buttes and bonfires. playing slap war with a deck of cards. it was great. but i had found out that mac was cheating and i did what i felt was the right thing to do...i told her. she didnt know if she should beileve me or not but when she comfronted mac he spilt it all. the next few nights were memerable.